What else but more thoughts
I have realized that I have let people's opinions influence me. I have stopped doing the things that I enjoy most. Taking pictures is a favorite of mine. I let a friend's negative comments stop me from taking pictures during my walks which led me to stop walking. I realize how much I miss taking pictures. How much I miss the positive reactions to them. So I have promised myself I will step back into it. Maybe I should add some back story to this. Since kindergarten, I have been bullied. Well the bullying stopped after highschool. But the affects from being bullied still linger on. I am a loner. I stick to myself, depend on my self. I hold things in to the point of where I feel like if I let go I will spin out of control like a top. I don't dance in public unless I have been drinking. Even then it is usually in a corner where I am less likely to be seen.