What else but more thoughts

 I have realized that I have let people's opinions influence me.  I have stopped doing the things that I enjoy most.  Taking pictures is a favorite of mine.  I let a friend's negative comments stop me from taking pictures during my walks which led me to stop walking.

I realize how much I miss taking pictures.  How much I miss the positive reactions to them.

So I have promised myself I will step back into it. 

Maybe I should add some back story to this. Since kindergarten, I have been bullied.  Well the bullying stopped after highschool.

But the affects from being bullied still linger on.  

I am a loner. I stick to myself, depend on my self. I hold things in to the point of where I feel like if I let go I will spin out of control like a top.

I don't dance in public unless I have been drinking.  Even then it is usually in a corner where I am less likely to be seen.